So I’m back home for Thanksgiving break. I have to take my brother to a dentist appointment in the morning. Also I pointed my site back to my original host provider since I didn’t set up nginx and Ghost correctly and I don’t really want to set it up over the break…

It always feels weird going back home. I would be lying if I said I wanted to be back home. Also being away from home for long periods of time makes me want to go back home…only a little. Living “on my own” gives me a lot more freedom and independence. Basically I can order a pizza at 2:30 in the morning and nobody freaks out.

One day I’m going to actually live on my own. By myself. I’m going to come home to an empty living space and nobody else is going to show up. Nobody else’s stuff is going to be there. Nobody else will be poking around in the fridge. Nobody else to make random side comments to while you are just hanging out. Basically a lot more alone time.

I’ve already lived a couple of those days. During breaks if I go home later than the rest of my roommates I have the apartment to myself. It’s a strange feeling. I wake up in the middle of the day, turn my computer on, and don’t really do much all day. I really have no reasons to leave the apartment because everybody is pretty much gone or is about to leave. I may leave to go get food somewhere. I always take my food back home. Don’t consider eating in. I’m kind of just lost to the world.

In the future it might be somewhat similar. Wake up, go to work, maybe pick up groceries on the way back home or maybe decide to eat out that night. Maybe I go get drinks with coworkers or friends. Maybe I decide to play video games or watch Netflix for the rest of the night. And then I go to bed. And then I repeat that. Forever.

I’m not really taking into account the people I will meet and the experiences I will have but after college life seems, routine? I don’t really know. I haven’t really thought about it. Recently one of my friends asked me what I would want my house/apartment to look like. What it would look like on the inside. I realized I hadn’t really thought about it. I’m pretty much always focused on the present and near future I really don’t think about the future (5-10 years from now).

What do I want to happen? I want to visit the west coast before I graduate college. It would be even better if I could live there for a while. During a co-op or maybe right after college. Graduating college is obviously something I am working towards. Work at a software company for a couple years. Maybe a startup, maybe something a little bigger. Then I want to start my own company. And that’s it. That’s how far along I’ve thought so far. I probably want to live in Boston but that’s probably due to the fact I’ve lived there for a couple years now. I haven’t had many chances to visit many other places. Washington DC is pretty cool but I’ve mainly been a tourist there. I will always remember Rhode Island but I probably don’t want to live there. I hate New York City. I never enjoy visiting.

At the end of the day though how much choice do I really have. Hopefully I have a lot more than a little. That may be part of the reason I don’t really think that far ahead. Who knows what could happen. Now that I am going on co-op I need to decide what I am going to do with my evenings. Co-op will provide me not just new professional experiences but new personal experiences as well. I’m looking forward to it. I am also looking forward to getting back to my desktop. I really miss having 2 monitors.